Weight: 237.3 (Gained 2.3lbs)
Neck: 14.75 in
Biceps: 15 in
Bust (w/sports bra): 44.5in
Smallest part of waist: 40 in
Waist measurement belly button: 45in
Muffin top/fat apron: 50 in
Largest part of hips: 50.25
Since my last post last week, I gained two pounds. I have only just taken all of my measurements this morning after going to the gym. I want to begin this post on a positive note. I did get up on time this morning, at 3am, and made it to the gym. I did 20 minutes on the treadmill, and 15 minutes on the elliptical, I did roughly over two miles. Keep in mind that this is my very first workout in a lonnnnnggggg time. After working out, I managed to come home and stretch. I downloaded an app for a thirty day ab challenge, and completed day one. The goal here is to start small, and build myself up to be stronger, better, and more healthy. I also managed to squeeze in a meditation this morning! J
I went for a thirty minute walk this afternoon for my lunch break. I have to say that today is the first day in a while that I have felt consistently happier throughout the day, and more productive.
I made a schedule for myself to follow for the mornings, and afternoons when I get home to better manage my time, squeeze in a workout, get the sleep I need, and also take the time to prepare healthier meals and to not eat compulsively.
Usually as soon as I get home from work I head straight to the kitchen, and will start eating; a horrible habit that I am going to break, day by day, moment by moment. That’s all I can do is take it a moment at a time. It’s embarrassing having relapsed, and admitting that I struggle with this problem with food. I feel like talking about it and being honest with myself is helping. I made zero progress this past week. However, this is a new week, and I will do better.
In documenting this process, I have to document my failures as well as my success because I want other people to know that they aren’t alone, and that this journey to health and recovery (for any fellow binge eaters reading this) won’t be perfect. A success story isn’t all about success, it’s about failures too. I won’t allow this failure to hinder my success.
I also struggle with depression, and had a really bad week. Pretty much was compulsively eating my feelings every evening, and the result of that, was my gaining weight.
However, I will say that today has been a really great day, and I am confident that I will make it through today. I have managed to stay well hydrated, and eat healthfully. Night time is when I struggle the most, but again, my hopes are high for this evening! I’ll be doing posts of weekly weigh ins/recaps/measurements.
I am going to do my best to post daily food diaries at the end of each day. This way, I am accountable for what I am eating! I am not counting calories currently, for now, my ‘diet’ plan is to stay away from refined and processed sugars/carbohydrates. I am trying to stick to natural foods, vegetables with whole grains and proteins. I am going for more ‘low carbohydrate’ eating, but not completely cutting carbs out, just eating the ‘healthy carbs’.
I will also be posting which workouts I did that day, along with the food diaries. It may be a bit inconsistent, but I will do my best. I also want to document my fitness goals, as well, not just measure success by how much I weigh, but by what I am able to do physically. I will be timing myself most likely at the end of the week on my two mile run, how many sit-ups and push-ups I can do in two minutes. Yes, this resembles the army physical fitness test, this is the only way I really know how to measure my fitness as I was in the army for eight years, so I will be doing it this way, for now!
Overall, I am feeling really good about today and this week. I feel like it’s going to go really well because I am ready to commit to this, and have made a schedule that I can successfully stick to.