Journal Entries

Weekly Weigh In (late)!

Last week I didn’t do a weekly weigh in post, a lot has been going on, but I’ll include all of that in an updated journal entry.

Start weight: 237.3

Current weight: 233

Total Weight lost: 4.3 lbs

It’s slow, but steady progress.  I haven’t been doing a good job of recording my workouts because I honestly haven’t been working out this past couple of weeks.  I have been improving my eating habits though, and it is paying off.

I’m going to start blogging about my workouts more often.  Thanks for reading, until next week.

March 20, 2017: Overdue journal entry, and the first day of Spring

Today, is the first day of Spring, and I welcome it with open arms.  I am beyond ready for the sunshine, fresh start, and new beginnings.

It’s been awhile since I have done a journal entry, about two weeks to be exact. A lot has been happening and going on in my life.

The week before last was a rough week for me, mentally. I was in a really bad place, and needed to seek out help. Battling with depression can really feel like an uphill battle. I want to get into this in an entirely different post, and I will. I had a huge mental breakdown on Saturday, March 9th. It was the worst mental breakdown I have had since my dad passed away. Yes, it was that bad. I literally laid in bed all day. I slept for most of the day, and cried for the other part of the day. I felt like giving up… after that day, I decided that I never, ever wanted to feel that way ever again. There are a few factors that contributed to Saturday. I don’t know how comfortable I feel about going into detail about them online. But that whole week I felt unmotivated, completely down most of the week, and just felt… gone.

I decided to seek out help. I contacted my old counseling place, and they just suggested therapy, which I really don’t have time for. I know this sounds horrible, but they are only open on the days I am working. I can’t afford to take any time off. They were really no help. I contacted my primary care doctor, and she did some blood work on me

As it just so happens, I am incredibly vitamin D deficient I found this out last Friday. She wants me to be on vitamin D3 supplements for three months and then come back. If I am still suffering from depression, she will refer me to a psychologist, or put me on medication. However, she informed me that she wanted medication to be a last resort, which I completely agree with.

Taking medication really freaks me out because of the side effects. Again, I will get more in-depth with this on a separate post on mental health.

I started taking vitamin D3 supplements on Friday, and honestly, I am already feeling quite a difference in how I am feeling. I feel a lot more present, and a lot less sad. I am hopeful that this will at least alleviate some of what I am experiencing. I want to deal with this in the most natural way possible. I started exercising regularly, which has helped my mood a lot.

Right now, I feel a little lost, and hoping to find a direction on where I want to go in life. I feel like I don’t have it together as much as I should, considering I have two children!

Juan started tearing apart the apartment, which is really annoying. I can’t stand his method of reorganizing. Instead of tackling one area at a time, he attempts to do the entire thing at once, randomly pulling shit out of the cupboards and cabinets leaving them out until he ‘gets to them’. I am attempting to help him when I am not working, but it’s hard to balance everything out. We are on separate schedules as well. He takes my daughter to school and drops her off. He takes care of our son during the day, and works at night. This is taking it’s toll on him, and as a result, taking a toll on us. We aren’t really on the same page. I am hoping we can get there.

The kids are doing well, I am trying to balance everything and still manage to make time for them. Quality time, thankfully I have made a schedule this last week and have been sticking to it pretty stringently which has helped me tremendously with my time management. However, my husband tearing our apartment apart has hindered that schedule a bit. We want to live a more minimalist lifestyle which I am all for doing. Again, I just absolutely LOATHE his organizing tactics… ahhh well. Hopefully this will be done by the end of the week.

Right now, I am going to sit down and write out some goals. I want to come up with an idea of where I want to be five years from now, and what I need to do to get to where I want and need to be. That is a short run down of what has been going on with me recently, nothing too exciting. I am going to visit a childcare facility on my way home from work, fingers crossed that we will be able to utilize it for Juanito and get back on the same schedule.

Until next time!

Weekly Weigh in

I did pretty well with eating healthy and working out, each day I did a minimum of at least walking for thirty minutes during my lunch break.

However, this weekend, I did eat like crap.  I’d be lying if I said I didn’t…. I still feel like I am taking steps in the right direction, and doing better!

Start Weight: 237.3lbs

Current Weight:  235lbs

Total Weight loss this week:  2.3lbs

Clearly the extra activity has paid off, and the better choices during the week.

I didn’t do my measurements this week, but will next week.

Goal for this week is to stay eating healthfully during the weekend, as well as the week.  No eating in the middle of the night (which I have been successful with this week).  I am feeling good about my progress so far, but I know that there are changes to my diet that need to be made.

Baby steps!

 

March 15, 2017 Workouts

I ate pretty healthy today, I just didn’t take the time to write it down. I eat almost the same thing everyday for breakfast and lunch. I apologize that this is short, but I did a ton of running around today, and it’s already past my bedtime. I had a dr appointment this morning and went to work immediately after.  Anyway, onto the workouts…:

40 minute walk during lunch break

20 sit-ups 

8 crunches

8 leg raises

12 second plank 

10 minute arm workout 

My body is sore just from what I have done the last few days! But I sure do feel great! 

Food Diary: March 14, 2017

Breakfast

Iced white chocolate americano with coconut milk 

Plain Greek Fage Organic Yogurt, granola (26g), 3 fresh cut strawberries 


Snack: Cutie mandarin orange 

Lunch: Spicy Italian sandwich on whole wheat bread


Snack: Sea salted organic potato chips (one serving), cottage cheese (1/4 cup)

Dinner: Organic creamy tomato soup with a large green leaf lettuce salad 


Snack: Lightly salted almonds (1 serving) 

Water: 80 oz

Workouts:

14 minute ab workout (Blogilates)

15 minute butt and thigh workout (Blogilates)

30 minute walk during lunch break 

I confess I did wake up in the middle of the night and have one bite of rock road ice cream. All I had was one bite! That’s progress for me to be able to take one bite and walk away!

I’m going to be cutting the coffee out starting tomorrow morning as I realize the added sugar from the coffee is not benefiting me. I may just change it to black coffee with a splash of cream. 

That’s all for today!

Food Diary: March 13, 2017

Breakfast:

Quad white chocolate Americano with coconut milk (I am aware that this isn’t healthy, but I am all about honesty here!)

Plain Greek Fage Organjc Yogurt  (1/2 cup) with fresh strawberries (3 cut strawberries) and granola (26g)

This looks like a much larger portion because of how the photo was taken, but these are small Tupperware containers.


Snack: Cutie mandarin orange

Lunch: Turkey club sandwich on whole what bread with lettuce (turkey meat, ham, and two slices of bacon).

Snack:  One hard boiled egg (organic and vegetarian fed), and 28 lightly salted almonds (one serving). The mandarin orange was my morning snack!


Dinner:  Half of a steak, sautéed spinach with garlic. I know it looks quite big in the picture but keep in mind the plate isn’t a full sized plate, it’s actually a saucer.


Snack:  1 serving of sea salted potato chips with 1/4 cup cottage cheese (didn’t snap a photo of this, sorry!)

Water consumption:  100oz

Made it through the day with no binges and without overeating! Yay!!!

Workouts:

15 min walking at a fast pace/incline on treadmill

15 min on the elliptical

30 min walk during my lunch break

15 sit ups

10 leg raises

5 crunches

5 leg raises

10 second plank

Weekly Weigh in and Initial Measurements

Weight: 237.3 (Gained 2.3lbs)

Neck: 14.75 in

Biceps: 15 in

Bust (w/sports bra): 44.5in

Smallest part of waist: 40 in

Waist measurement belly button: 45in

Muffin top/fat apron: 50 in

Largest part of hips: 50.25

Since my last post last week, I gained two pounds. I have only just taken all of my measurements this morning after going to the gym. I want to begin this post on a positive note.  I did get up on time this morning, at 3am, and made it to the gym.  I did 20 minutes on the treadmill, and 15 minutes on the elliptical, I did roughly over two miles.  Keep in mind that this is my very first workout in a lonnnnnggggg time.  After working out, I managed to come home and stretch.  I downloaded an app for a thirty day ab challenge, and completed day one.  The goal here is to start small, and build myself up to be stronger, better, and more healthy.  I also managed to squeeze in a meditation this morning! J

I went for a thirty minute walk this afternoon for my lunch break. I have to say that today is the first day in a while that I have felt consistently happier throughout the day, and more productive.

I made a schedule for myself to follow for the mornings, and afternoons when I get home to better manage my time, squeeze in a workout, get the sleep I need, and also take the time to prepare healthier meals and to not eat compulsively.

Usually as soon as I get home from work I head straight to the kitchen, and will start eating; a horrible habit that I am going to break, day by day, moment by moment. That’s all I can do is take it a moment at a time.  It’s embarrassing having relapsed, and admitting that I struggle with this problem with food.  I feel like talking about it and being honest with myself is helping.  I made zero progress this past week.  However, this is a new week, and I will do better.

In documenting this process, I have to document my failures as well as my success because I want other people to know that they aren’t alone, and that this journey to health and recovery (for any fellow binge eaters reading this) won’t be perfect. A success story isn’t all about success, it’s about failures too.  I won’t allow this failure to hinder my success.

I also struggle with depression, and had a really bad week. Pretty much was compulsively eating my feelings every evening, and the result of that, was my gaining weight.

However, I will say that today has been a really great day, and I am confident that I will make it through today. I have managed to stay well hydrated, and eat healthfully.  Night time is when I struggle the most, but again, my hopes are high for this evening!  I’ll be doing posts of weekly weigh ins/recaps/measurements.

I am going to do my best to post daily food diaries at the end of each day. This way, I am accountable for what I am eating!  I am not counting calories currently, for now, my ‘diet’ plan is to stay away from refined and processed sugars/carbohydrates.  I am trying to stick to natural foods, vegetables with whole grains and proteins.  I am going for more ‘low carbohydrate’ eating, but not completely cutting carbs out, just eating the ‘healthy carbs’.

I will also be posting which workouts I did that day, along with the food diaries.  It may be a bit inconsistent, but I will do my best.  I also want to document my fitness goals, as well, not just measure success by how much I weigh, but by what I am able to do physically.  I will be timing myself most likely at the end of the week on my two mile run, how many sit-ups and push-ups I can do in two minutes.  Yes, this resembles the army physical fitness test, this is the only way I really know how to measure my fitness as I was in the army for eight years, so I will be doing it this way, for now!

Overall, I am feeling really good about today and this week. I feel like it’s going to go really well because I am ready to commit to this, and have made a schedule that I can successfully stick to.